a moment

Its amazing how a moment can hit you out of nowhere. Walking along. Making it. Happy. And out of nowhere I get hit with a wave of heart break. Without warning or reason. Nothing has changed, yet I have this wave of dread sucking me under. I know it will pass. The whole day has been wonderful and stressful. All work wise. Now siting on my dinner break a feeling of the loss of T. It hit me from out of nowhere. I haven't lost her although some times it feels like I have or should. I feel like if I took a large enough breath in right now I could burst in to tears. I love this woman. Don't feel like I can rely on her. Want to make it work. Do I just not want to give up?