Can I take it

If I chose to stay with this woman I have to admit she has a mental illness and that . I know I can live with mental illness. Its noting new to me.

But can I handle being in love with someone who changes so drastically. This is not a situation you can sit down with a pen and paper and make a pro vs con list because there is no points scale you can assign to something like the way you feel when you are with someone. How much it hurts when you don't trust them. Or the qualities they posses that you want in a person.

I am not ready to give up on this. This month is better then last, and if this is progressive in improving I can work with that. I might just have to learn to get busy for a week each month. I love her, and for 3 weeks each month its good. I am confident in how she feels and what she wants.

I may need to change my point of view. Know that when she is like this it will pass. And stay strong thru is, not get jealous or scared. Because she will be back in just a few days. Let the shit that she says roll off my back in this week of the month. I am gonna give it a little more time. If things continue to get better I will keep going. If we hit a wall then I will call it.

So as always try to go with how I feel. Little by little it will work out how it is supposed to. Maybe this will all teach me to not bend too much for someone else.