Fat

So I am officially back to the heaviest #'s. How ever I am still 2 dress sizes from my heaviest. cant tell ya how that one works. I am totally out of shape. I have 9 weeks till I have 3 5k runs in one weekend. I need to start running NOW to be able to do this with out killing myself. I tried to take a run with the dog. she was not having it at all. poor little thing can not run. so i need to figure a way to get my run in and her walk and still have time to sleep and socialize and of course work. maybe i will just start running to work and change when i get here. its worth a try at least.

I don't want to do the diet thing. I don't want to get back to a place where i am obsessed with counting calories and scrutinizing everything i eat. i think if i just keep my exerciser at a healthy level i wont have to resort to that. i don't care about being skinny, but i do want to move better and have more energy.

i wonder what its like to not have this as one of the main things you think about and struggle with. i know everybody has something that they struggle with. i just wonder what its like to have a different struggle.