Constant chaos and movement masks my lonely heart.
deep down in side i am screaming for a real connection
someone to know me, someone to love me.
someone to understand and comfort me.
my soul longs for someone to be with.
i love love and i miss love, real love
not only romantic but family love
long time friend, knows you without speaking love
The things in side no one is seeing are still there
the empty place in my heart, an anxiety that none of it will last
Queens somebody to love is on constant repeat in my head.
my single state recently has been supplemented and filled by new friends.
potentiol long term friends, but so many of them that none of them know me.
I want people to rely on. i want people who are as willing to take care of me when needed as i am to take care of them.

I am fat and out of shape.
My house is dirty
My dog needs her nails trimmed
my bank account is small.

i need to pull my shit together.

i need a good long cry and someone to hold me.

i love how being social feels like sugar melting on your tong, i need some nourishment. not just a short term sugar high.