A tv show just broke my heart. Apparently I am even a more emotional person then I thought.

I was thinking about some of the people I have dated, a very short list.

One, one that loves me and never should have. That loves me wiht out any reason or knowledge of me. Is a doll. To be dressed up, to be told what to do. This is a quality I do not value in a person what so ever.

I want someone to love, who does not loose or change them selves to be with me, and does not want me to change for them. I don't think that's too much to ask. I know that technically LOVE is linked to insanity, the way the brain works, love changes it. I would like to fall in love and not lose bits, or chunks of me.

Until then I dont want to love. I dont want to fall for some one whodrinks too much, does drugs, will abuse me, or lie to me. There has got to be a honest, sane person out there who is calm, not too wild, who will love me.

I am intelligent, Kind, Compatent and Loving. I deserve a human who is the same. I dont need beauty, I dont need money. I know I am asking alot, but I believe I deserve alot and there are some things I just wount settel on.