I have been kinda upset lattly. Well more depressed then upset. For a whole range of reasons, annoyance with myself being a large one. But I am working on it.

One of the things deffinatly bringing me down is the constant negativity around work. Everyone bitches non stop, everything is wrong, everything is bad. I am not sure when we stoped being a team here or how to get that back.

I will probably start walking away form people when they bitch. There is a huge difference between bitching, venting, and expressing a legitimate problem. I am willing to listen to venting, and legit problems, but the bitching is so overwhelming.

And you know what. I would like a chance to speak. Seriously if I am your best friend, shut the fuck up for 2 min so I can say anyting. I know I dont talk much, but really if you have been babbaling non stop, breath maybe so I can atleast get one word in. Do you have a dam clue what is going on in my life right now. Well yes you do because I dont have a life, but do you know what is going on in my head at all?

I have not been able to stop crying, I have had a perma frown on my face, and I have not looked anyone in the eye. If you knew me at all you would recognize this. Em did.

Yes I and getting better and going out last night did me leaps and bounds of good. I came in smiling to myself, and you are bringing me down!