I think I am more bat shit crazy than any of the women I date more for the way i react to their crazy then for my own crazy. technology has mad me so impatient. i cant help but get irritated when i don't get a response to texts and i overreact and under react at all the wrong times.

i blocked T from being able to call me. i feel so much peace without her here. who knows if she has even tried to get a hold of me or if she is sitting outside my house stalking me right now. either way fuck it!!!

as for susan. oh lord this girl is gonna have me so fast. yet i want to kill her. the only plans we had tonight were to hang out after my crew dinner. and now i am sitting here waiting for her. she said she was on her way 25 minutes ago. not long at all. patience. FUCK.