Ah

I have been told now by 2 people close to me that I am selfish. And in both cases I know that it was truly the person pointing that finger that is the selfish person. I believed Jeana for a long time after she told me I was selfish. It took alot of time. Some very good friends and alone time to realize that its not true and in alot of cases I need to be more selfish. Now Tricia is telling me I am selfish. I have offered her everything I have in the world. Given her all the energy I have and still it is not enough. She is truly the selfish one. Taking everything 2 people has and it is still not enough for her. I know this mornings fight is not the end of what ever us there is. But I hope that I can carry with my this knowledge. That I am not selfish. I am giving and loving. And worthy of the same. I want to hold on to the knowledge that the fact she has a emotional disorder is not an excuse for the way she acts. The episode is not outside of who she is. It is a part of her. I will not justify away her actions.