New Years

Well happy new year. last night was.........interesting.

I spent it with my adopted parents and one sister, it was boring, i watched them do a puzzle, dam my adopted dad, can be so dam overbearing, and they are all so timid. im guessing the only way Teri and Anna aren't timid is that they are rebelling against Robert and Sharon. then we lit sparklers at midnight. watched a movie and went to bed, dad made us waffles this morning for breakfast,he misses us all so much when we are not around.

i got a text message last night from a friend who i loved so much at one point and almost thought i wanted to be in love with. she is engaged to an idiot, a slimy, skeezy, coward of a thief, she deserves so much better. at least when she was dating phil i knew he would treat her right.

this whole pairing up lobster thing that humans do is so strange. so many of my friends would rather pair up with somone who is a friend, we all have the same roommate grow old thing idea. i do want the romance and sex thing too. i feel like it is ot a real idea, like utopia. utopia and love dont exist, it would be nice if they did but,its not worth slitting my wrists over or anything.

so there is this guy im unfortinatly getting close to. shit