thank god Christmas is over!!!!!!

im so glad, i hate the way it makes me feel, i hate the way it makes me act. i hate that it makes me shallow, and greedy, i hate that i added up what i spent and its over 600 dollars, and i got a pen that doesn't work, a camera that i wound use(2 of my closest friends are photographers) and lost my job, anyone else fucking freaking out yet, i haven't been sleeping because of this. i need to get on this and start job hunting right now, but what do i want to do? i feel so lost im 25 years old unempleed and completely lost.

somone told me i should move to be with him, the truth is if he said he would love me when i got there, id be there in a second.