Wednesday, December 26, 2007

ways to make your best friend panic

you tell me that your bleeding from places that you shouldn't be loosing blood. of watch my head explode.

mother fucking sone of a ass licking bitch

thats about it. im just all frustrated, and stressed out!!!!!! thank god i can just aford to get by. where the hell is josh??? i want to talk to my strange friend
thank god Christmas is over!!!!!!

im so glad, i hate the way it makes me feel, i hate the way it makes me act. i hate that it makes me shallow, and greedy, i hate that i added up what i spent and its over 600 dollars, and i got a pen that doesn't work, a camera that i wound use(2 of my closest friends are photographers) and lost my job, anyone else fucking freaking out yet, i haven't been sleeping because of this. i need to get on this and start job hunting right now, but what do i want to do? i feel so lost im 25 years old unempleed and completely lost.

somone told me i should move to be with him, the truth is if he said he would love me when i got there, id be there in a second.

Sunday, December 23, 2007

good bye

so i quit my job, i wanted to tell my boss she was a whorable person i wanted to tell her i knew she was unhappy. but i dident. i said i had mabe my desition, that i felt i had to leave, so now im unemployed, and don't know what is next.

well back to the juicy stuff, yes the affair, i keep hearing his voice in my head his breathy voice of sex.i dont want to have my heart n this, and if were were closer it wouldent be, hes a drunk a cowerd, and an ass but ugh i lust for him so much. he is even kinky, loves to sitisfy me, tells me that all he wants is for me to cum.

Friday, December 21, 2007

i wish we could love eachother

im having an affair.


im not sure how this started or if im realy doing anything wrong.

im not with anyone and he and i have no future. i wish we did but all we have is sex.

this is so great, im so happy to say this, our friends dont know. and i cant tell anyone how much i want him, and thats alot coming out of me, iv dated only women for so long, only lusted after lesbians, and only let women near. but he makes me feel so much more lust and trust then i have felt scence i was with my first, which is a intierly different post, he was a she then and now he is gay, wow.

any way. i dream of him leaving that stupid bitch he lives with, showing up here with nothing but his dog his car and some cloths and saying he wants to spend the rest of his life with me. i know it would never work. but its so nice to know that there are men in the worl who are compasionate at sex, who care about my pleasure. and do want to make me happy again, now if i could just find one i can get along with in and out of bed.